Wednesday, March 7, 2012
:: When I Thought I have Everybody ::
Allah,
I have no one excepts you.
When everybody is against me.
I had you near my heart,
When I'm left alone,
I had you near my heart.
When I cry,
You watch me sleep.
I just know you will always be there for me.
I won't ask why had I've been struggle
Too much in life.
Cause I know
If there's nothing left for me in this world.
I know you want me to compete for the world in jannah.
Though how weak I can be, right now.
I won't be despair.
Even at times.
I feel like giving up life.
Its like I had live to burden everyone.
And I tried best not to be one.
But it has been likewise.
Heartbreaks all the time.
Wet pillow all night long.
Pain much?
Yes, it is.
Sometimes, I feel I'm the most useless person
In this earth.
Once...I had friends who I can count on.
But sadly, even friends stab me from me behind.
Lonely, as you can see.
Again, I was wrong.
I have you Allah.
And you dear blog,
2nd best listening ear.
Hehs.
So now,
I just wonder.
Love ones leaves one by one.
Then why had you stay,
What took you so long?
You know I can never make things any better.
Why had you make suffer
With all your kindness that I've owed you?
You know I can't afford to repay you.
Not only that.
I had never been thankful and grateful
With the kindness you showered me.
To add on it,
I repay you with hurts and pain.
I took advantage of your kindness.
I step on your head.
I was never grateful.
Now, I leave it to Allah.
He knows best.
At times to think back,
It was my fault
That I've never learnt my lesson.
I should not depends on others.
Guess, I've lost trust in myself.
Mom,
Do forgive me as I've failed to be
A good human being that I should be.
And to you,
I rest my case.
Even if you're not meant for me.
I thank Allah for sending someone nice like you.
I do get tired with all the heartbreaks that I had caused.
I do get sick of myself.
I just wanna break free from all this suffering.
Labels: :: I was wronged, I had nobody ::
Yours Truly, Ella @ 2:41 PM
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